Day 15

I love my mother but some of her comments really hurt. I know my mom and dad split on somewhat bad terms over 20 years ago. But she does not have to constantly remind me it or tell more faults. I love my dad andI have my own issues with him. What happened between them was a long time ago. In ways it has made me a stronger person. My dad has not always been there. And if he was there our time is cut short because he has to run off to do something with her faimly. One of the things that I continuely hear through my mind is from my graduation when Carolyn made the comment that they missed her nephews graduation to attend mine. Well he is my father if you wanted to go to your nephews ceremony you should have gone to and missed mine but my father better have attended it. That really hurt. You married and got me as an added bonus. I hurt when you could not have me at Jeff's funeral, because you could not handle me due to my age. Did you know it took me over 10 years to really accept his death. You did not care about my feelings until I lost a friend the same way. You did not realize that those statements really hurt. When you come down to visit. What about visiting me for once. The little comment about we will visit you more when you are married and have kids. Why can't you visit me now???? When I come up there to visit I spend 90% of my time there with Carolyn. I would be happy relaxing on the couch watching a football game or home improvement show. I do not need to shop every second that the stores are open. You made shopping with you guys a bad though in my heart. I wanted to buy an outfit when I was visiting, I was only a dollar or 2 short and you would not help me. I would have paid you back, I had the money at home, I would have given it to you. I promise.  See little things like that hurt and weigh on someone for life.

Day 14

Man.. Is there any way to understand them? You do your hair, put make up on  and dress nicely and they do not notice. They send out mixed signals just to play with your head. Hello, Kick your friend that you see everyday and flirt with the nice looking lady. But no.. you fall slept in the chair. This flirting crap is so frustrating. Oh well... Back to the wonerful world of work in a few hours..

Day 13..

Did not get to write yesterday.. Not much happened. Talked with my dad. trying to figuire out when I am going to get up there to see them. That is another journalentry for another day.

As for today, I had an interesting day. I got to meet Fran from Trading Spaces. He was at the Orlando home show. I had my picture with him and revieved an autographed photo. He is the nicest person. His must be a fun guy to work with. The home show was neat but the bonus was meeting him. Can't wait to get the pictures developed and put in my scrapbook. It is best to arrive early. When we left at 2pm the cars were backed uo to 528. Then we went for lunch and came home. It was a good day.

Day 11

Well not to much to talk about. I have been working all day one paperwork and catching up.

Day 10

Well I sit here wondering if the power will stay on. Th power has been going on and off all evening. lets see if it makes it through.

Work: It is starting again. My coworkers are starting to assume that since i do not have kids or school to go to I can cover for them. Why is it my responsablity??? Debbie always has to have the last word. I was in the middle of an exam, I am not going to leave the doctor to go exit out of my computer. Call someone who is still signed in and ask them to exit, if I am not at my desk I can not exit. Get someone to help out. And How are people suppose to get things completed when they never get time to work on it??? I am beginning to think i need to leave this job to get the weight off. Not everyone is supportive. Like my horoscope said "Outsiders don't get it. You can't do it for them"

Chocolate Update: It is out of the desk drawer. No I did not eat it. I gave it away to a set of parents that made a special trip to show us their sweet little doll. It was worth it she was a very alert little lady for 5 days old.

Day 9

Well today started off like a normal. After lunch the staff from the business office came over because they started smelling something in there office. They thought that it was a gas leak. So they called the fire department. Well that office do not have city gas to it so common sense would say that it is not a natural gas leak. Well it is a Methane gas back up. This only means that the poop they have been dishing out is coming back to get them or in simple terms, they are full of Sh*t. The fumes were coming from the restroom that was totally destroyed and is sitting empty. It is probably not capped off like it should be, done half of the proper way required for safety reasons. The second interesting thing: A police drug stop in our parking lot. Yes, 4 undercover patrol cars pull over a car in our parking lot and arrest a lady for possession of cocaine. So the afternoon turned into an adventure. Me, I just behaved myself and tried to keep out of trouble. I did as I was told or asked by my superiors. I stayed out of the way of upset Doctors. I put the patients in the rooms and put labs in the computer. But I just remembered that I did not run the Quest manifest. Nothing I can do from here. And again why is it My responsablity to do it. Everyone left early and did not run it. I ran Labcorp when he came in. See I am not worrying about it. Oops..Life goes on.

Day 8

Not much happened today. We were busy at work, to busy to sit down and think. spent most of the time answering the OB phone calls. I am truly amazed that Tina can get anything done. Between Answering the calls, Calling patients with results and 4 new OB's a day.no wonder she takes some many anti-depressants a day. Some of these patients worry me about how they will be as parents.

Hershey Bar Update: Still in my desk drawer.

Day7

Well the weekend is over already. Time to start another rough week at work. Did not do much but take care of a sick puppy. Poor little IV Grace was sick all night and most of the morning.Did a little bit of cleaning on the Jet Ski and finished up laundry. I mostly relaxed and cuddled my sick little baby.

IM entry Day 6

Today I do not have much to write about.. It is was a very low key day. Spent the day washing laundry and relaxing.

Day 5 Late entry

9/19/03: Went to work today as usual. It was like any day. They brought the staff from our Palm Bay office to the Melbourne office. Of course not long after I arrived I heard what I hate to hear, " I don't know how to do that" " I can't do that" and "after yesterday I not working with her". Life is a bear, you have to put it behind you, today is a new day. She is going to have to lose that attitude before she is moved up to Melbourne. I am so glad it is the weekend. Time to unload and relax. Then after work I went to Victoria's Secret to be properly fitted for a Bra.  Properly fitting bras can get expensive. Then I went out jet skiing with Richie and his friend Neal for a few hours. They wore that poor jet ski out. I was so tired afterwards u ended up crashing before writing, so i must catch up today. I will write my entry for today a little later.