Wednesday, October 29, 2003

Day 43

Well it has been a rough week. I have been fighting a Cold or Flu since last thursday. Today I went to the doctor to get some help fighting it off. A week after it started and I can't take it anymore, time for meds. The doctor said it had indeed moved to my lungs. Now I get a few days off of work with rest. It is very hard to rest when they are still banging repairing the the entry way. It is coming out nicely though and will be worth it in the end. The door is now in and the walls are going back up. They will be stuccoing the walls tomorrow and the painting, ceilling instalation, light, thee tile and the outlets next week.

The suprising thing is that I recieved a call from Dave. The last time I heard from him was just after christmas. We talked for almost an hour. It was very good to hear from him. He talked about getting together Saturday night. It will be good to see him. It was last September since I saw him last.

Thursday, October 23, 2003

Day 37

I am pretty good. but it has been a rough day. The puppies got their teeth cleaned. I felt guilty bringing them home and leaving them at lunch. I.V. Grace followed me around crying. It really broke my heart. I felt like a real mommy after that. They have been cuddly little sweethearts all night.

Well they came to put the new front door in today. It is 10:20 om and no new door because we have termites. Yep they have invaded our entry way. So No tiled entry or new door. Instead we get new stucco. We will see how this goes. And to top it all off I have had an Allergy attach all afternoon. It is getting better. The sneezing is getting better, the sniffles / runny nose is slowing. Oh well it is bed times.

Tuesday, October 21, 2003

Day 35

Well today we presented Dr. Slack his album. And he said he loved it. I really hope he did like it. It was a pleasure to make it for him. We had a blast at the party. It is going be hard to see him go. He has been fun to work with.

Monday, October 20, 2003

Day 36

I am feeling especially fat today. This weekend I felt like I ate a lot. I feel like a stuffed pig. I don't know why. I have had a headache for the last 2 weekends and they have been really hard to get rid of. If feel puffy and balloonish. I feel yucky. Extremely gross. I think part of it started when we went to the mall looking for clothes. I hate going shopping. Clothes depress me. Shopping clothes just dashes all hopes. Yuck.... Clothing designers suck..

Work: you know maria is one that can just dash all your hopes and dreams. She has to criticize just about everything you set your heart about. While doing her entry into Dr. Slacks book she read mine and asked if i wanted her to correct my grammer and spelling. NNNOOO... It is the way I think itis how it comes out of head. If you don't like learn to live with it or move on. This is why I do not do well in english classes. This is why I am sooo crafty. This is why I can program your cell phone and you can not... YOU DO NOT THINK OUTSIDE OF THE BOX. Get off it and do your job.

Saturday, October 18, 2003

Day 34

Well I have completed Dr. Slacks book. In one week I completed 69 pages in one scrapbook. He will be presented with it on Tuesday. I truly hope he enjoys it. I will write you then and let you know.

Other things in my life. We took the puppies to the Petco opening and had there pictures taken. They came out so well. The puppies were very cooperative. They sat so pretty. I don't know if we can wait the 4 wks they said it would take to get them in. I will post them as soon as I get them.

oh i forgot to post that I have lost 3 1/2 pounds since I this journal.

Tuesday, October 14, 2003

Update.. The hershey bar is still in my desk drawer unopened. It will stay there too. I do not need it to make me feel better anymore.

Day 30

I have not written in a while because i have been busy with a work project. I have also been a little frustrated with the male population. First I have Tony, He has cut the last thread. He calls me to meet up with him and he falls asleep. Then Friday I call him to see if he wanted to have lunch together and he called back and then blew me off. Well jerk you just lost your turn.Your loss. I can not keep playing this game. Then there is Joe. He is happily married but says he still dreams of me. He states that I am sexy and he still wants me in his life. No buddy you chose someone else to journey down the isle with. You think of me, I have news for you, you hurt me emotionally. You never even knew you hurt me. I really do not think you cared that you hurt me. You are one of the reasons I got to this weight.I ate to cushion the let downs I always faced around you. One of the good memories of me and you is how you woke me up to the way Frank was treating me and after the let down from John. I loved going out and having fun together but then you always used me. This has caused me to be very angry. I am tired of being angry, you have the relationship you want and I do not want these feelings anymore. Understand. Like I said before you chose her, you live with that choice. I think that is about it for tonight. I feel a little bit better now.

Saturday, October 11, 2003

Day 27

Well things went well at the expo. Spent a little too much money. Bought a lot of cool thing. Bought some really cool stamps. I did get most of Dr. Slack book done. The die cuts I ordered had a little miss spelling in it. So those are not ready yep. It is looking pretty good. I have to print out a few things and get some stuff that the office it printing out. I truly hope he like it. Things are doing pretty good. I had McDonalds for lunch yesterday and did not finish all of it. That is good. I barely at any chocolate during my cycle and I usually will kill for it during this time. This is going to work. I am going to  drop this weight. My only problem has been a migrane. I keep getting a Headache that will not leave. If it is not gone by monday I will have to call the Doctor to find out why..

Thursday, October 09, 2003

Day 25

Well not to much has happened over the last few days. Just working all the time and getting frustrated with the lack of management's awareness of problems.They are shouting themselves in the foot by not getting help when they are ahead instead of waiting until we are sinking. It is juat very sad how the current management has lead this practice into the ground. The have killed Dr. W's business. She was better off when connie was in control. Everyone respected everyone else. There no standing around. If you had a problem you did not have to worry about bringing punished for addressing the problem. I just don't see how this is going to be solved with current management. They don't have control and they don't have a back bone. They are never around when there is a problem or they run and don't back up the staff. enough about that...

I'm going to the Memories Expo in Orlando Tomorrow. YEAH!!!!! Until later...

Tuesday, October 07, 2003

Day 23

Things have been busy the last 2 days. Short staffed at work and heavy patient load. I have been working on the going away present for one of the Doctors. His book is starting to take shape. I have been good on the diet. Today a patient brought Chocolate covered potato chips (My Favorite) to the office. I only had a small piece, dime size piece. Otherwise I have been doing very good on it. I have never realized how much this had help to unload on the computer instead of shoving food in my mouth.I have lost 3 lbs in about 3 weeks. The hershey bar is still in my drawer. Usually my first day on my cycle is the day I crave the sweets but it have not been bad today. Things are looking up.

Sunday, October 05, 2003

Day 21

Not to much is going on. Mom passed her Real Estate broker test. I have still have not heard from the guy I discussed yesterday. Oh well he will get over it. It is not my problem. He will realized how he is acting and grow up someday. 

Diet update.: I have lost about 3 lbs since I started I this. I have  had the munchies this weekend. I think it is because I am due to start my cycle soon Monday). I have not had the sweet cravings like I usually have but I still have a week and it usually gets worst through out that week.. I will control those cravings because I am going to lose this weight.

Started on day 20

Well, it is finally the weekend. I know I did not write yesterday but I did not have much to say. I guess I will say it now. I think I have ticked off one of my former partners. He is married and has been bugging me for some oral activity. He can not get it through is head that he is married and I do not mess with men who is married. He had his chance with me and he totally blew me off. His loss. He has the wife that is what she is for. He is now acting real short to me because I won't help him out. He can piss and moan all he wants. I DON'T CARE. Like I said before I am tired of getting walked all over. It drives me bonkers when I talk to him and he acts so jealious if I talk about taking off work and it does not include seeing him. He needs to realize my life goes on without him. Don't get pissy with me if I have plans with someone else, like a guy. It does not mean that I am going to jump in bed with them and why would it matter anyway. I am a single adult female and you are a married man. You have your wife to go home to and cuddle up with, and for me it is an empty bed. It was not a wake up call when I called you on it and gave you a time and place and you backed out because you love her. Don't get pissy and short with me when you can't bring yourself do it. Don't keep harassing me about it if you ain't man enough to do it when you get the offer. What we had was in the past and you have a new future and you chose it without me in it, so you live with it. Welcome to Adulthood and the wonderful world of Marriage.

Thursday, October 02, 2003

Day 18

The spider saga continues at work. My co-worker thinks she was bitten again. She causes her reaction to get worse by how she gets at the thought of them. She may have learned her lesson after she had to give herself a shot to counter act her so called reaction and is hurt. It is becoming such a drama.

My self control... Today at work one of the drug reps passed out reese cups (My fav) ton everyone and I gave mine away. I went to Wal-mart where they announced they that had just taken fresh bread out of the oven and I did not buy any.This is a milestone because those are my down falls..

Wednesday, October 01, 2003

Day 17

Are there mornings that you feel you really should just stay in bed? Well this morning I should have listened. I walk in to hear this barking cough. One of my coworkers has this nasty cough and they still have her working. In the field of medicine we work in you can not come to work with that kind of cough. She is walking around all of the halls and even taking patients back and drawing labs. They were picking on me for spaying lysol but they do not realize that kind of cough would land me in intensive care. It could also be fatal to our patients. If you are that sick, STAY HOME..

And spiders. They are everywhere. I have a coworker who is afraid of them and is allergic to some of them. One was spotted in her work area and she about came out of her skin. The she starts itching & breaking out all over, mind you she was not bitten. Then she wonders why she is itching.. It is the adrenaline running through your body. Work came to a halt while everybody working in the office was told. Then she started on about how she was worried about losing her job because of this constant problem. It was a major drama. It is never a dull moment at the office. Disappearing members of managment, useless billing department, indestructible spiders, brainless coworkers and lasy, whiny MD's.

Diet wise: I have lost 2.5 pounds so far. This is really helping by unloading all these feelings and conqouring my eating habits. Thank you Dr. Phil. 

Day 16 (late entry)

I did not get to write for Day 16. We went to a wine tasting earlier in the evening and my head was swimming a little by journaling time came along. It was very neat to learn a more about the different types and origins of wines and wine making. I highly recommend this classto everyone as a must do in life.