Why do men do this..

Why is it that when you start to move on about a relationship you were in with them they have to pop back up and play with your heart strings? A guy from my past that I care about then he just up and disappeared with the girl he had supposable broke up with. (this was 6 years ago) the a year after he disappeared I get a call and he and her are expecting a baby... Than another phone call from him and she (the baby) is a year old.
Spring forward to Now. We have always talked when he is on shift at the fire department. I worried about him when Hurricane Charley hit his area. The thing that gets me is every time we take he has to make comments like "I still have feeling for you" I have always had feelings for you" and so on... Well if you really had feeling for me why did not take it one step further then just sex. You pretended to like me but used me then ran off with someone else and you wonder why I get defensive and snappy during our talks.
To be quite frank I have two guys like this. Both giving the same bullshit lines and excuses. I am tired of hearing "I still care about you.. Yeah what ever. You thought about that when you were using me. Don't pretend to care now because I know you are still full of Shit... The bad thing is they don't think that they did anything wrong. They did not realize that they hurt me.. Are you both that stupid? Wake up call I have shed enough tears and I am trying to move on. Why do you both have to keep bring up the past? Go run to your wives and leave me alone..... Men they are just so frustrating.

Tired, Very tired...

I do not know what it is but right now I just can not get enough sleep. I have no energy. I don't feel like going to work. I can barely keep my eyes open this morning to make it to work. I would love just to stay cuddled in bed with my two sweet little pups. They are both sleeping, dreaming away. Cody is in his tight little ball & I.V. Grace is sprawled the length of the couch. I wish I could have their days, lounging around.

New Puppy Pictures

Home from SDV

I have returned from SDV Orlando and boy am I tired. I accually returned yesterday but I am still tired. I think I got a whole 18hrs of sleep sine Thursday. I visited disney Friday morning to watch them open the park which was fun too see the chacters ride up on the train. I completed about 37 pages total. We had a fun time laughing and carrying on. We went and watched to Magic Kingdom fireworks from the ninth floor in the hotel, they were beautiful. well I have to go since I have to go back to work tomorrow. YUCK!!!!! I hate that place...

2 days to go.... SDV you are in my sights

SDV is just 2 days away. A time away from my insane job. Time away from a few of my insane co-workers & patients. Only two days of sharon's mood swings & dramatic productions. YEAH ! ! ! ! !... Time away to do some thinking of what I want to do next. Do I want to stay at my current job? Do I want to find a new one? In or out of the medical field?

Okay back to the title... SDV at Disney's Contemporary hotel. With my own room. Four days of scrapbooking at the mouse house. Think about it waking up and going straight to the magic kingdom. Run to epcot for lunch.. Smashing pennies at the hotels.. I CAN NOT WAIT.... Wait I still have to pack my clothes.. Oops guess I will need those.. Don't think they would like this chubby chick running around naked.. scary.... Gotta go pack..

Harry Potter & The Half-blooded Prince

****If you have not finished the book MOVE ON - Spoiler Post****

Well I have finally finished Year six of the Harry Potter series. In about 2 weeks I must add which is pretty good for me. This book was just totally wrong. The ending was just Horrible. One of the greatest characters was killed off. Yes Dumbledore was killed by one of his trusted members of staff, Severus Snape. I can not believe the way the book ended. There are a few pointsof the books that I tuly enjoyed. Harry finally going after Ginny then he pushes her away for search out and kill the person who took everyone Harry has loved away. Tonks confessing her love for Remus and it starting to head toward a direction for happiness & love. But the Death of Dumbledore is just so heart wrenching... I am so in mourning now.. Heart broken. And what is even worse it will probably be another 2 years before the next book comes out.. Oh frustrating.. Hurry Up J.K. Rowling and finish book 7!!!!!!!!!!!!

How dogs are like children..

It is so funny to seehow dogs are just children. Cody is truly the rotten little brother. He teases I.V. Grace. Today apparently Cody was trying to be his adventurous little self by attempting to dig out of the yard. We noticed they were out side for a long amount of time. When I called them inside I.V. Grace was acting like she knew he was up to something he was not suppose to be up to... You got it a planned escape. Went I looked at Cody's toes you could see that they were dirty. When I walked out to investigate she showed me exactly where he was digging. She was truly proud of what she had done by telling on him. I don't need children because I already have two of them. Well I must go see what mischief they are into now because he keeps running on to the porch and she is still outside..

Times they are a changing

The time of growing up and taking care of ones self is sweeping through Lumberton. Grandpa is putting hisfoot down and the children are being forced to take care of themselves. The other day dad & carolyn came home to find a message from grandpas cell phone. Yep he bumped the phone and it called dad. He had apparently just set BJ down and explained to him that he needed to start caring for himself,paying his own bills and keep money in his checking account to cover what he has written. He, grandpa, flat out said that he could cover his bills and BJ's also. Time to grow up biy!!!!. Saturday (July 23rd) Elizabeth had requested a metting between Grandpa, Kelly (Elizabeth's Fiancie) and herself to discuss what was going to happen now. Elizabeth purely expecting to get all of Grandmas jewelry, NOT!!! Grandpa flat out told her that she is off of his health insurace as of September 1st, she needed to transfer the cell phone bill into her name and start paying that bill and that Grandma had 2 other granddaughters that she was not going to be the only one getting Grandmas jewelry. Grandpa I am proud of you and stick to your guns and make them start paying for their stuff...

Back from North Carolina -- part 2

Okay I guess I will pick up where I left off. We arrive at Grandpas house and he was suprised to see that I had made it up there. He looked very tired. Of course most of the family was munching away on food provided by people within the community. The funeral home had opened up at 2pm for the family to go up and view the body. We go back to the house and they start feeding us again. About 4 pm we go to Thomas and pa's home and get ready for the public veiwing at 7pm. There was a line out the front door until about 8:30pm when the visitors seemed to tapper off. Afterwards we go back to the house for, you guessed it, more food. Carolyn kept talking about a strawberry pie someone had brought by. We finally get home about 11pm. Wednesday (July 20th) we have the final few events to get threw. We have to be at the house by 10am because the limos will be there a little after that. Well almost all the family arrives. We get ready to loading the limos and Edwin's friend (B.S. Girlfriend) son wants to ride with the family while his mother and Edwin are riding in their own vehicle. They luckily decided to take him with them. We arrive at the chuch and the family files in an as we walk down the aisle we pass Elizabeth (evelyn's daughter) is sitting with her fiance with all the other guests. She did not even want to sit with the family. There are no problems with the grave side service. BJ hits the rode as soon as the pastor says this concludes the sevice. Elizabeth moves in to suck up to grandpa. Well we return to grandpas and change clothes since it is extremely hot and pack back into the vehicles to go back the chuch for lunch. The church provide a wonderful lunch. Meanwhile Elizabeth had returned to her mother's house and proceed to remove her items out the house. The rest of the afternoon was running to the library where he had to drop off some paperwork. While we were there a young lady and her friend found out that grandma had passed away. These 2 ladies were truly in shock. Well grandpa wanted to go out for chinese food. Most of the family went. BJ was being a total ass playing with his cellphone, trying out different ringtones in the middle of dinner. Well not long after we finished we left to come back to daadshouse and get some rest. Thirsday (July 21st) Time to come home... Yeah!!! back to my routine.. Well I get up at the same time I have all the time I have been there 6am. I do the normal stuff with getting ready. Go into dads office and go and try to check my flight information and his computer is beyond slow. can't get anywhere. As I am waiting for the site to load the news has breaking information from London saying there has been another bombing in the subway system. Well everyone gets up and moving. We get breakfast and head to the airport a little too early which was all my fault because I did not want to miss my plane like I almost did last time. So we arrived about 10:30am and sit so we leave and roam around Greensboro. About 12:15 I head to the gate and we stood around waiting to board until the time we were suppose take off and head to Atlanta. Were did not arrive at Atlanta until 2:33pm and I had less then 10 minutes to catch my flight to Melbourne. So here I have to sprint from gate 30 to gate 16. I just make it. And I am finally home. Thank goodness..

Back from North Carolina

I have returned from my unexpected trip to North Carolina. ~~~ This may be long post~~~
Saturday (July 16th) Mom & I spent looking for something to wear to the funeral. I also went and had my hair trimmed. That night I was asked to watch a co-workers granddaughter who is a whole 3 months old. She is truly a sweet little girl. I went to Palm Bay were they live. They have two of the biggest & cuddliest lab (1 chocolate & 1 black). Both boys have the biggest puppy dog eyes. Those 2 pups are truly in love with their new little sister. The family friends come home about 10:30 so I made my way home. Called dad to see what was planned in way of the services and stuff. Sunday (July 17th) was my birthday. We had planned to spend the day goofing off at the Disney parks. So we got up and headed to Orlando. Halfway there we got a call that they would be setting down a plan for all the funeral. So mom and I had a blast at the Magic Kingdom and Disney MGM. We came home about 7 pm and started making flight arrangements and pack. Monday (July 18th) I head to the office to tie up a few loose ends and head to the airport. Check in and head to the gate. As you know you have to have everything x-rayed and go through the metal detectors. Being in the state of mind I am in I forget to take off my wrist brace, I get tagged and have to be closer examined. What a pain in the ass. The lady waved the metal detecting wand over my body and go of in the chest area. What medal do you have there she asked - Duh underwire bra. Then it goes off at my abdomen. Duh the zipper in my pants. Okay make to the plane after that hassle. Everything is fine until we land in Greensboro, North Carolina. The pilot landed a little rough then hit the breaks pretty hard. I make it off the plane and I am picked up by Angie ( my stepsister-in-law) and their kids. We go and get something small to eat. We go back to their house and the kids start. Wanting to play games and run around. Well I am tired from being on a plane all day I just want to rest. Then John (my stepbrother) makes it home. He wants to go to an auction. Not a problem until Amanda starts throwing a fit. Total Drama.. She finally deals with it. We go and win a futon and it does not fit in the vehicle we arrive in. We return home and John & Angie go to pick up the item and leave me with the kids. We go out and play ball and while we were messing around I bumped Amanda's lip and made it bleed. You would have thought I took a limb off by her cries. The cut was less then a half an inch and stopped bleeding in less then a minute. So I gave her some ice in a paper towel and she was fine after that. Of course the little saint Michael wanted to call his mother. I told him there was no reason to because Amanda was not really hurt, it was a booboo and she will live. We come in to rehydrate and cool down. Mom & dad come home and they take me to Fudruckers for my birthday. The evening ends with us all getting cleaned up and into bed. Amanda wants to sleep in my room. I get the futon and she gets this foldout little foam couch. Well my routine is I read while I read. The show Medium is on and I leave the channel where it is. Amanda comes in after in after her mom gave her a bath and she starts asking to change the channel and I have to remind her that she is not suppose to be watching TV to close her eyes and go to sleep. Well Michael peeks in and sees that she is watching TV and runs to mom to rat out his sister. So I turn her little couch around so Amanda could not see the TV. The whole thing was a big drama act. For a 10 year old little boy he surely does not act it and his sister does not act 6 years old. Man I really like my Birth Control. Tuesday (July 19th) We get up, Angie runs the kids to her mothers house to spend the night and go to VBS. (Thank God). We load up our bags, ourselves and take off toward Lumberton, North Carolina. I think I will stop here because my hand it starting to get writers cramp. The rest of the trip will be even longer. Continue later..