Day 43

Well it has been a rough week. I have been fighting a Cold or Flu since last thursday. Today I went to the doctor to get some help fighting it off. A week after it started and I can't take it anymore, time for meds. The doctor said it had indeed moved to my lungs. Now I get a few days off of work with rest. It is very hard to rest when they are still banging repairing the the entry way. It is coming out nicely though and will be worth it in the end. The door is now in and the walls are going back up. They will be stuccoing the walls tomorrow and the painting, ceilling instalation, light, thee tile and the outlets next week.

The suprising thing is that I recieved a call from Dave. The last time I heard from him was just after christmas. We talked for almost an hour. It was very good to hear from him. He talked about getting together Saturday night. It will be good to see him. It was last September since I saw him last.

Day 37

I am pretty good. but it has been a rough day. The puppies got their teeth cleaned. I felt guilty bringing them home and leaving them at lunch. I.V. Grace followed me around crying. It really broke my heart. I felt like a real mommy after that. They have been cuddly little sweethearts all night.

Well they came to put the new front door in today. It is 10:20 om and no new door because we have termites. Yep they have invaded our entry way. So No tiled entry or new door. Instead we get new stucco. We will see how this goes. And to top it all off I have had an Allergy attach all afternoon. It is getting better. The sneezing is getting better, the sniffles / runny nose is slowing. Oh well it is bed times.

Day 35

Well today we presented Dr. Slack his album. And he said he loved it. I really hope he did like it. It was a pleasure to make it for him. We had a blast at the party. It is going be hard to see him go. He has been fun to work with.

Day 36

I am feeling especially fat today. This weekend I felt like I ate a lot. I feel like a stuffed pig. I don't know why. I have had a headache for the last 2 weekends and they have been really hard to get rid of. If feel puffy and balloonish. I feel yucky. Extremely gross. I think part of it started when we went to the mall looking for clothes. I hate going shopping. Clothes depress me. Shopping clothes just dashes all hopes. Yuck.... Clothing designers suck..

Work: you know maria is one that can just dash all your hopes and dreams. She has to criticize just about everything you set your heart about. While doing her entry into Dr. Slacks book she read mine and asked if i wanted her to correct my grammer and spelling. NNNOOO... It is the way I think itis how it comes out of head. If you don't like learn to live with it or move on. This is why I do not do well in english classes. This is why I am sooo crafty. This is why I can program your cell phone and you can not... YOU DO NOT THINK OUTSIDE OF THE BOX. Get off it and do your job.

Day 34

Well I have completed Dr. Slacks book. In one week I completed 69 pages in one scrapbook. He will be presented with it on Tuesday. I truly hope he enjoys it. I will write you then and let you know.

Other things in my life. We took the puppies to the Petco opening and had there pictures taken. They came out so well. The puppies were very cooperative. They sat so pretty. I don't know if we can wait the 4 wks they said it would take to get them in. I will post them as soon as I get them.

oh i forgot to post that I have lost 3 1/2 pounds since I this journal.

Update.. The hershey bar is still in my desk drawer unopened. It will stay there too. I do not need it to make me feel better anymore.

Day 30

I have not written in a while because i have been busy with a work project. I have also been a little frustrated with the male population. First I have Tony, He has cut the last thread. He calls me to meet up with him and he falls asleep. Then Friday I call him to see if he wanted to have lunch together and he called back and then blew me off. Well jerk you just lost your turn.Your loss. I can not keep playing this game. Then there is Joe. He is happily married but says he still dreams of me. He states that I am sexy and he still wants me in his life. No buddy you chose someone else to journey down the isle with. You think of me, I have news for you, you hurt me emotionally. You never even knew you hurt me. I really do not think you cared that you hurt me. You are one of the reasons I got to this weight.I ate to cushion the let downs I always faced around you. One of the good memories of me and you is how you woke me up to the way Frank was treating me and after the let down from John. I loved going out and having fun together but then you always used me. This has caused me to be very angry. I am tired of being angry, you have the relationship you want and I do not want these feelings anymore. Understand. Like I said before you chose her, you live with that choice. I think that is about it for tonight. I feel a little bit better now.

Day 27

Well things went well at the expo. Spent a little too much money. Bought a lot of cool thing. Bought some really cool stamps. I did get most of Dr. Slack book done. The die cuts I ordered had a little miss spelling in it. So those are not ready yep. It is looking pretty good. I have to print out a few things and get some stuff that the office it printing out. I truly hope he like it. Things are doing pretty good. I had McDonalds for lunch yesterday and did not finish all of it. That is good. I barely at any chocolate during my cycle and I usually will kill for it during this time. This is going to work. I am going to  drop this weight. My only problem has been a migrane. I keep getting a Headache that will not leave. If it is not gone by monday I will have to call the Doctor to find out why..

Day 25

Well not to much has happened over the last few days. Just working all the time and getting frustrated with the lack of management's awareness of problems.They are shouting themselves in the foot by not getting help when they are ahead instead of waiting until we are sinking. It is juat very sad how the current management has lead this practice into the ground. The have killed Dr. W's business. She was better off when connie was in control. Everyone respected everyone else. There no standing around. If you had a problem you did not have to worry about bringing punished for addressing the problem. I just don't see how this is going to be solved with current management. They don't have control and they don't have a back bone. They are never around when there is a problem or they run and don't back up the staff. enough about that...

I'm going to the Memories Expo in Orlando Tomorrow. YEAH!!!!! Until later...

Day 23

Things have been busy the last 2 days. Short staffed at work and heavy patient load. I have been working on the going away present for one of the Doctors. His book is starting to take shape. I have been good on the diet. Today a patient brought Chocolate covered potato chips (My Favorite) to the office. I only had a small piece, dime size piece. Otherwise I have been doing very good on it. I have never realized how much this had help to unload on the computer instead of shoving food in my mouth.I have lost 3 lbs in about 3 weeks. The hershey bar is still in my drawer. Usually my first day on my cycle is the day I crave the sweets but it have not been bad today. Things are looking up.